Afraid of letting go of the old. Afraid of the unknown of the future. I decided to try something new….
The effects of acupuncture:
Calming my nervous system. Allowing me to drop down and reconnect with the truth of my being. The aspect of who I am beneath all thoughts, circumstances, stories, feelings, tension, and uncertainty …There I found a stillness, a place where no answers were needed. A place of pure being.
Today I’ll address the fear that says “What if I need to let go of some things in order to create room for the new?”
The answer is yes – You will need to let go of some things. But the meditation practice will help you to access what those things are . It will help you access the right time and the right amount.
For example – in order to create room for more workshops and retreat leading, I needed to take a 6 week break from teaching private voice lessons. This felt extremely scary and hard!
The fears: “What if the answer is to not return? What if life is leading me some place else? But that has been my base income for over a decade! How will I survive?”
The voice of fear needs to have its turn. It needs to say all of it’s terrified statements with it’s trembling voice. It needs to be on the table, otherwise it stays in us, stuck and surpressed, but rearing it’s head as unmanagable anxiety. And yes…this is what started to happen to me.
I’m realizing the importance of maintaining a daily practice. Something to ground and anchor while this new phase in taking flight. I also realize that I have many fears to face.
The Fears: “What if this is all just temporary? What if I run out of steam to be an active presence in the world? What if I now need to let go of some things to create space for this new aspect of what is flowing through?”
So here I am, examining and putting the tools that I teach in the Hidden Treasure to the test.
Let’s start with Byron Katie – she would say “Is it true that you will run out of steam?” And then answer is, I can’t know that…But I can sit with the feeling and the fear. Let it run it’s course and see the truth that exists under it.
The Truth- these workshops give me energy. This work is in alignment with my higher calling and the fuel source feels strong. Perhaps you are not the one doing it. You are just the vessel.
Then inner guidance kicks in and says…”Remember to do your daily practice. Remember to tune into that source of fuel that never runs out. Relax into that state and open to that all connecting, universal flow of energy. For IT is always there for us.”